Other Worldy Blessing

 

 



Have you ever felt you weren't in the real world, that world where everyday happenstance is predictable, with solid footing, that sense that we know where we are and have a semblance of control over our lives?  Yes, a long sentence, but think about it. What I think is the "real" world is really the never ending thought that I "know" something.

The other day I had an out of this world experience. It was other worldly and felt so true, so perfect. I felt I had not lived before that moment. My past, my future disappeared. All I felt was pure joy, and a happiness that seemed to flow through me. Drowning in grace, the horizon disappeared in front of us. I felt in a circle of Spirit that words cannot fathom. It was an energy, so sweet, the part of myself I feel is connected to another dimension, to the Source.

 

We drove the boat out on Barnegat Bay to watch the sunset. The last ride of the season before pulling it out of the water. Not a soul was on the water, it being November, and the shore was covered in colorful  shades of orange red yellow. It was incredibly vibrant, taking my breath away.

Whoever coined that saying "take my breath away" sure got it right. We watched the sun sink below the hills and rode out towards the mouth of the ocean. We found ourselves sitting in the middle of the bay, and the Light engulfed us. It was quiet, the horizon seemed to disappear, the colors spread out, the skies light mimicking the shades on the liquid surface. With every minute the radiance changed shades of different colors, continuing to amaze us with its magic.

We didn't want it to end.

 

We were in a Blessing. The grace filled moments we shared illuminated more brightly, the love we have for each other. We could literally feel the awe and gratitude exuding from our hearts out towards the Spirit surrounding us. When we finally had to drive the boat back towards home we knew we had experienced a moment to be relived again and again in our lives.

 

 

 

 

 

Long Time Gone

It's been awhile. I figure there is so much to read, so much to catch on, to learn, so little time....who the hell reads blogs regularly? Much less write one. I can't even really keep up the Facebook thing. It stills or deadens my brain immediately which could be used for other purposes. Not that I don't read some amazing items, and may even post them. Not that once in while I want to share a picture of my life with others......such a dichotomy. It also allows me to see some people I love to pieces which causes my heart to open or jump. And also it's a lot of crap.

And there is my own old belief about what I say doesn't matter, that it's not a sign of humility to write about my ideas, attitudes, thoughts, etc. What I feel and say may matter or not, but for this moment it's real for me. And is that worth putting 'out there'? So this is, once again, a practice for myself. A writing practice, a little like walking daily, or learning to play an instrument. Easy or hard as I make it.

Life is a whirlwind, a place of gratitude and, sometimes solitude, sometimes not, always choices and more choices. Today I live on both coasts, have two amazing places to be me in. One in the redwoods of Northwest California, the other on the Barnegat Bay in New Jersey.

I have family whose story could be a magnificent book (if only someone could write it....ha!)
And a hundred short comedic, philosophical, crazy and entertaining stories could be shared here.

Turning 60 has definitely awakened my heart to the time I have left. So has watching a friend die and other myriad experiences. I am grateful for all. We have maybe a day and maybe a small lifetime left. But life is meant to be lived each moment, hopefully without drama, a lot of thankfulness, open minded to the next moment, the next different perception, and most important of all......my love for others and how I generate that.

That's a big job right there. It is worth posting here. I do better visualizing and explaining smaller daily experiences of life,  and because Life is composed of those individual situations, lessons, moments of sadness and joy.....that is what I will write about.